I learned today that a friend I have not seen in years...someone imbued with an innate understanding of astrology...has achieved his dream of returning to England...his homeland...
His announcement came as no surprise...I knew he had been moving toward that goal...I knew that it was only a matter of when, not whether, he would leave...
I realized, as I was wishing him well, that I experienced no emotional conflict about his imminent departure...no push to make sure I see him before he leaves...no pull to create obstacles to his leaving until I could see him...common feelings I would have experienced in the past when saying goodbye to a friend...feelings that would have had me moving heaven and earth to create one last visit together...
Mighty, the Buddha who came to Iowa...
That I was making no effort whatsoever was as remarkable as it was unforeseen...so I took time to sit with it...to feel into the situation and other similar experiences...to recreate all the many responses I might have had in the past...and I came to an astonishing...some might say disturbing...realization...
I no longer worry about losing contact with people...because of...well, Facebook...as if it can take the place of real human contact...as if it can express what I am feeling without the need for human interaction...as if it...or something better...will always be there...
This freakish recognition made me long for a digital sabbatical...until I realized that then I wouldn't have any idea what is going on with anyone...anywhere...anytime...
So now I am sitting with that...and wondering if there is anything in my transit chart that might explain it...